Jul 8, 2014

For The Past One Year

I think, for the past one year, things have been, indescribable.

     I made changes to my life. Things I thought I would never be able to do. People I thought I would never be able to let go. As time passes, I learnt that that is the most dangerous thing to do for attachment towards certain things or certain people, pulls away one of the dependency bits of you and it could leave you unguarded. Much to my surprise, the leaving part was actually one of the best decisions I have ever made for ever since then, things are so much clearer. 

     For the past one year, I have been trying to keep my balance, but still, some things get off the track. I felt like I have been going at it as my usual self and at the normal speed but no, I think at this point, crawling would already be considered as one of the biggest achievements. Little did I realize that my compromise has changed parts of me, a lot. Things, which I should prioritize. Things, which I myself know, without enough attention, consistency, effort and self will, would be so hard to maintain. I would like a part of me a year ago, but I don't wanna go back there. 

     Surely it does not get easier from this point on, especially with what I want now but I pray that, however my path will be, I would still go back to that girl, the one year before, should life once again comes confusing. But hey, this time around, I'm not going back there.