Feb 25, 2013

Just Give Me A Reason

Well, because I have been having this one on my replay lately.

The more I listen to a song, more different interpretations come in.

Everyone need a reason for something and once you found your ultimate reason for living, it keeps you going, you live. 

And there's a difference between just live, and living your life.

It doesn't have to be a person, not necessarily, just something special. It could be anything. It could be one thing, and it could be among so many things.

As I listen to the song, I found it palatable to my thoughts, not in a way that you are in a romantic relationship (I'm guessing that's the main idea of the song originally) but, it is more than that. Put the idea of a song in an ocean of thought, and you'll be in amazement finding the ink running in different directions, but still, on the same ocean. It makes listening to songs more, universal and intriguing.

I'm guessing learning literature had something to do with this lol.

Anyway,




Feb 24, 2013

Like a Snowflake

Photo: A pair of puffins on an island in Maine

사랑은 눈꽃처럼 다가오나봐


손 내밀어 담아보지만 늘 녹아버려

Well, yeah. I just copy paste it but still . . .

Anyway Google translate didn't do a really good job translating it, I've tried.



Feb 22, 2013

Hey There #1

Assalamualaikum.

"Searching to find myself, but all I find is you."

It's 22nd February. So I guess in another nine days I'll be starting the new semester. 

Yeay :|

     Truth to be told, I don't feel like going back to Shah Alam at all. Not even a bit of enthusiasm. Like seriously, compared to getting into the previous three semesters. Looking at my last semester's exam result, I got like a lot to cover and to catch up but why oh why, semangat yang hilaaaang, kita cari pulaaaaang. Yeah ain't got no nothing to fuel up the motivation. But I guess it will slowly come to me as I get into the atmosphere, hopefully.

     When I went to school the other day with Ayu to visit Sir Zaharani and other teachers, we met Cikgu Mat Noor, the counselling teacher. So he asked me, how was my result? A question to which I reply with only a smile, hehe. Segan ah.Then he told me that the other day, a former student of our school also came to visit, her result was somewhere 2 something. So my teacher asked her, what exactly you were doing while studying? You only need to study so supposedly you could do better. You don't have to work yet, you have nothing else to think about except studying, so basically you have nothing holding you back to concentrate in your study. he then turned to us and asked, "Ko guano?" So yes, that also applies to me.

"Jika kamu tak tahan pada lelahnya belajar, maka kamu akan menanggung peritnya kebodohan."
Imam Syafie


     Come to think of it, I could have done better. We all could have done better. Cikgu was right after all. I don't know about other people but me, I basically have nothing major to worry about. Remember that part of the form where they ask what is your profession and if you don't have one yet you just write 'student'? If I am to admit studying as my profession, it would be more decent for me to actually take my 'profession' seriously." Last semester was, horrible. I, was horrible. Facepalming all the way remembering my lackadaisical attitude towards my studying. Well yeah, the alter ego would definitely defend it by using all the so called boundaries but hey let's get the record straight here, those were nothing but excuses.

"If you can find a reason, you can let me know, I won't blame you, I'll just turn and go."

     Yeah alter ego, walk away. Haha. So, hello semester four. I have no idea what do you have to offer but whatever it is, I'll try to take things differently this time (in a more positive way lah kan). And this semester, I have a new little mission to accomplish. Just, one resolution out of many that I would really really want to accomplish.

May Allah ease.

:)

Every Night, Imagine Dragons.


     

Feb 16, 2013

Senjatanya ialah Cinta

Depan kau tebar kata cinta,

Madu dan gula, madu dan gula ulangannya,

Kata-kata dibuat jala,

Untuk perangkap sisa kononnya.

Tapi belakang erat kau genggam senjata,

Sedia kau hunus bila saja dia alpa.

Cinta?

Bahaya. 
Jaga madahmu wahai manusia.


Feb 15, 2013

Feb 9, 2013

Cerminan Nombor Lapan



They never look to see me fly, so I never have to lie.
(Imagine Dragons, Tiptoe)


"Andai saja kau tahu betapa dunia ini satu medium penipuan yang licik." Suara Wahid perlahan menuturkan nasihat berbekas falsafah kehidupan 20 tahun, memecah sunyi yang kian membukit antara mereka.

"Mungkin, mungkin aku sudah lama tahu. Tapi kenapa ya, susah sungguh hati ini berpegang pada yang satu itu?" Hadi membalas.

"Satu . . ." Perkataan itu diulang Wahid, lucu barangkali memikirkan betapa perkataan itu merefleksikan makna namanya. Setelah beberapa saat berfikir, dia menyambung bicara, "Untuk manusia, kalau ada satu, maka satu itulah juga yang dia akan pegang. Bebas dari pilihan kerana tiada pilihan. Sebaliknya, jika kau punya banyak pilihan, payah lah hati itu mahu memilih, apa lagi berpegang teguh pada yang satu."

"Seperti pergi membeli belah."

"Ya, seperti pergi membeli-belah. It could be seen in two dimensions though. For most people, it's just shopping, for some people, it's an investment. Satu pelaburan. Engkau punya wang yang banyak sekali, dompetmu tebal dengan wang ringgit, barangan di situ semuanya mampu milik, banyak sekali pilihan tapi yang kau perlu hanya satu. Apa kau akan membeli apa yang menarik matamu tapi tidak perlu atau kau fokus pada tujuanmu ke situ hanya untuk membeli satu yang perlu."

"Cantik itu bisa menipu, itu satu helah dunia yang sudah aku teladani. Aku tahu apa yang aku mahu, yang aku perlu dan ianya cuma satu, cermin."

"Baik. Kau mahukan satu cermin, satu sahaja. Yang dijual pula memang banyak tapi yang direkomenkan cuma yang terbaik. Cantik, sempurna, kata si penjual. Lalu pula seorang mak cik tua, memberi nasihat padamu tanpa dipinta, berpandukan pengalaman hidupnya dia menyokong kata si penjual bahawa ternyata cermin itu yang terbaik antara semua. Tapi entah kenapa di matamu cermin itu tampak buruk, hodoh, jelek tapi kau beli juga kerana kau berpegang pada kata si penjual, pakar penjual cermin dan kau menghormati pandangan mak cik tua yang ternyata kepentingannya tidak bersangkut paut pada hidupmu tetapi riak prihatin jelas di kaca matanya. Bingkainya dihias permata berkilauan, harganya pula mampu milik maka kau kira apalah ruginya jika kau beli. Apa kurangnya cermin itu pada mata manusia biasa? Tiada! Tapi bagimu, kau tidak nampak apa yang istimewa juga."


"Wah bro, you're going too deep lah, haha." Hadi tersenyum sambil gelak hambar. 

"But you're still following kan?" tanya Wahid sambil tersenyum memandang sahabatnya. Senyuman Hadi masih kekal. Dia membalas isyarat mata Wahid lalu pandangannya dibuang ke sisi berlawanan dan perlahan, dia mengangguk."

"Yeah, I am. I'm following," balasnya.

"Okay, jadi persepsimu sebagai manusia mungkin berubah dek cerminan itu. Mungkin, kali pertama kau membelinya, ia nampak cantik pada mata orang, tapi masih jelek di pandanganmu. Semua orang memuji kecantikan cermin itu tiap kali mereka bertandang ke rumah tapi masih lagi kau hanya melihat buruknya cermin itu. Tapi setelah beberapa lama jiwamu diasah kematangan, kau sedar yang kau cari sebenarnya refleksi yang benar. Bilamana cermin itu kau pandang, dapat kau lihat, mana celamu, mana sempurnamu. Mungkin setelah sekian lama, kau akan nampak lebih banyak cela dari sempurna pada dirimu maka kau merasa sedih tapi melihatkan kilauan permata di bingkai cermin itu, kau rasa lega. Ia mengingatkanmu bahawa rupa itu superfisial, sesuatu yang hanya mereka yang tahu hakikat kebenaran penipuan sahaja tidak akan pernah peduli akan itu sebab bagi kau, apa yang penting adalah isinya, kualitinya. Kau nampak, cermin itu, benar-benar mencerminkan dirimu. Ia tidak hanya memperbesarkan pantulan kesempurnaanmu atau keburukanmu semata seperti kebanyakan cermin lain tetapi ia berlaku jujur dengan celamu. Just, honesty. Hanya tika itu baru dapat kau lihat, betapa cermin itu cantik di matamu. Apa yang cantik itu bukan kilauan permatanya, tetapi refleksi telusnya. Puji orang pula mungkin sudah kurang enak didengar, iyalah, cermin lama. Tampak buruk di mata manusia tapi tika itu kau sudah tidak akan kisah kata orang pada cermin itu.  Bagi kau, makin cermin tu dimamah usia, makin cantik ia di mata engkau. Pujian orang padanya kau terima dengan hati lapang, nista padanya kau buang tanpa setelah diambil kira pandangan yang berpadanan, dan kau berjanji akan jujur pada refleksi cermin itu."

"Because you have found your number eight reflection," serentak mereka mengutarakan isi itu lalu tergelak bersama.

Hadi mengangguk, memahami apa yang cuba disampaikan sahabat baiknya, Wahid. 

"Terima kasih, bro, and may our friendship also go in the direction of a number eight figure," ucapnya dalam senyuman yang lebih lebar disambut pelukan erat dari Wahid.






Feb 6, 2013

Demons by Imagine Dragons


   Ever since I started listening to Imagine Dragon's music, I kinda get hooked. I love it how heir music diversify beautifully, so different from one to another. It took me quite some time to go song by song. I don't know about you guys but I found some songs sometimes are kinda deep. It really is hard to tell what exactly the song writer is trying to convey by his music only by listening and assuming. Sometimes I wish that each song comes with the description of the background on how the song was inspired and written with the meanings and all or maybe there are MusicLiterature classes where we could interpret song lyrics haha lulz. One of the songs I love, thus making it qualified as this week's music choice (bajit Billboard chart haha) is . . . *drumroll

Wait, the tittle is already up there. Oh well. 

I just love the trail of imagination it could initiate at the first hearing and the way it opens up to so many interpretations.

I heard this quite a few times, sometimes I see it as a friend, sometimes as Kang Maru (no kidding lulz :P ), sometimes as parents and sometimes, simply as a human being.

Anyway, enjoy and feel free to contribute your view :)



Feb 5, 2013

Tasteless Coffee

Assalamualaikum.

I've heard a super tsugoi analogy between hardship and life today. I altered it a bit though but still . . .

     There was once a young man who had encountered so many many many hardships and endured so many many many unfortunate events in his life that he almost give up his life. His last resort was meeting a very famous motivational speaker at his town, sort of. He was hoping to get some advice. Let's just picture that speaker as an old wise guy with white beard wearing tiny spectacles, well now I'm picturing Dumbledore -.-'  Ah well that'll do. 


     So anyway, the young man asked the old man, "Oh wise old man, I have encountered so many hardships in my life. How do I deal with this?" And the old man told him, "Go to my kitchen. Take a handful of coffee powder and a glass of water. And the young man did as he was told. "Now, put that coffee into that glass of water and drink it. How does it taste like?" Asked the old man. The young man did as what he was instructed and drank it. "Bitter!" he exclaimed after having a taste of one drop of it. His face contorted as he tried to neutralize his taste bud by licking his lips. He couldn't bring himself to drink all of it. "Exactly." responded the old man and then he instructed him, "now go take another handful of coffee powder and come with me." The young man went to get another handful of coffee powder and followed the old man to a well. 

     He poured down the coffee powder into the well, and asked the young man to have a taste of it. "Now how does it taste like?" the old man asked. "Nothing, tasteless. It's not bitter at all." said the young man with a puzzled face, not knowing what exactly  does this prove. "Now young man, that is life." Said the old man, smiling at the young man's puzzled face. He continued, "Your hardship in life, was a handful of coffee powder. If you put it in a glass of water, it'll taste bitter but if you put it in a well, it has no taste at all. Now that glass and well, is your heart. If you accept the hardship with an open heart, it'll be a breeze but if you accept it with a small heart, it'll suffocate you. You see the main crux here is not how many hardships you have in life, but how open your heart is as you accept and deal with them." 

The young man smiled.



Foot paddler

"Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people." (2:286)


When in difficulties, looking at the people who have it worse than us could help us to be thankful, insyaAllah.

And hey, we got sugar so why must we let it be bitter?

:)

Feb 2, 2013

Love Letter #3

Kamsahamnida.

Picture of a baby loggerhead sea turtle in the waters off Florida

"Mungkin Dia mahu mendidik, agar kekuatan itu kita cari dari-Nya yang terutama, bukan sokongan manusia semata."

One's doubt actually taught us to have faith in ourselves which in the journey of establishing one, we look for the ultimate source of faith.

May He guide us to the right path, and remind us of things we tend to forget in the wonders of everyday life.