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It's Time by Imagine Dragons

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At some point, you're gonna have to start anyway. Somewhere, sometime. It's time to begin isn't it?

Another Dot

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I'm letting it all go. Here Wish list reviewed,  edited, and finalized. It's not giving up, it's being realistic. Maybe I'm putting another label to it,  maybe it has just occurred to me how absurd they all were. maybe I'm just running away. Regardless of what it actually is, I'm still letting it go. Hopefully, this will end up somewhere good/better. Biiznillah.

Book Review: Extremely Loud Incredibly Close

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      Unexpected incidents caught our emotions off guard. My question is, even if we do prepare ourselves for such loss, could we be sure that we will be okay? Would we handle things differently or will the overwhelming emotions still be catching on us?  Left. Right. Thank you Eera Zaher, for lending this to me :)      As I put the book down, I had this bottled up feelings inside of me, which content are from the emotions that all the characters have been going through. Like I was a part of them too. Oskar Schell, aged 9 has lost his father to the 9/11 incident. They had a very close relationship so it was very hard for him to deal with the loss. Different people dealt with their loss differently but they always got to the same place as they walk, a wall. There will always be this big, solid invisible wall built from all of your emotions that separated you from the real world. They could come in a square, a circle, a rectangle or even triangle with you in the

Love Letter #2

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"Abah kata jangan dipersoal ketentuan Tuhan.  Hikmahnya ada, mungkin makan masa untuk terima tapi jangan dihabiskan masa melontar persoalan." Here  :)      In an unfortunate event happened to my sister, my Abah told her this to put her at ease and as she retold the story to me, it came to me that one of my 2012 mistakes was that I spent so much time questioning that I waste the time that I could use to improve. I ask about a lot of things. The hows and the whys especially. Some are answered, most are disappointingly go unanswered and it does upsets me personally. The thing about abstract questions is that it requires abstract answers which sometimes could only come from experience and time. Without we realizing it, not only it consumes our time but it consumes our spiritual energy, hence, the emotional rides. On the bright side, it could be one of the means to uplift your spirit. It makes you think and reflect yourself.  Exploit all of the emotions, tell it al

Living The Life (?)

     My Abah is quite an adventurous person. He'd usually spent his weekends hunting with my uncles or some of his friends. Today, Abah got home from work at about 4 something. By 5, he packed up some culinary appliances and told us that he's going to paddy field for a while. He'll be back by night. "Outdoor!" he exclaimed with a smile after a hard day at work. And here I am, waking up, watching tv, filling up my tummy whenever I'm bored, scrolling the timelines and blog walking. I'm beginning to doubt my age and questioning my purposes in life.

Notes from Home #1

     When I went to BBW the other day, I bought a book entitled Mastering Filters for Photography which provides guidelines in using the filters, one my attempts in learning the technical aspects of it, just for a light reading. I thought that it may be useful for my brother and maybe when I want to learn photography seriously, it could come in handy. As I got home, my older brother took out the book and jokingly told my younger sisters, "Ni hah, Ain beli ko adik ambik ah." (something that I am not planning) My younger sisters, both are enthusiastic on the idea of photography screamed hysterically reaching out for the book before even knowing that the book is just actually about filters, not the angle techniques and all. One is 16 and another one, Adik is 13 and just started secondary school. She enrolled herself in the School's Photography Club. My older brother's provocation sent them rambling on how they are going to learn photography using my brother's camera

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I never believed that I would actually get tired of doing something that I have passion in, til the day really come. And it was scary.

Love Letter #1

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For the extreme one unicorn of a ride I first had this year, I stumbled across this; Surah Hud 9. And if We give a man a taste of mercy from Us and then We withdraw it from him, indeed, he is despairing and ungrateful. -Dan jika Kami berikan rahmat kepada manusia, kemudian (rahmat itu) Kami cabut kembali, pastilah dia menjadi putus asa dan tidak berterima kasih. 10.  But if We give him a taste of favor after hardship has touched him, he will surely say, "Bad times have left me." Indeed, he is exultant and boastful. -Dan jika Kami berikan kebahagiaan kepadanya setelah ditimpa bencana yang menimpanya, niscaya dia akan berkata, "Telah hilang bencana itu dariku. "Sesungguhnya dia (merasa) sangat gembira dan bangga, 11.  Except for those who are patient and do righteous deeds; those will have forgiveness and great reward. -Kecuali orang-orang yang sabar, dan mengerjakan kebaikan, mereka memperoleh ampunan dan pahala yang besar. It seems that I always f

2012

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Assalamualaikum. Because I am a human, flawed and never was perfect.      As 2012 ended, I always thought that I should do a post-mortem of myself. But often it got stalled because truth to be told, I found out that 2012 has been able to point out so many of my flaws that has put me on shame. Shame of the mistakes. Silly mistakes I might add. Maybe that is one of the reasons why I always avoided that post-mortem. On the other hand, I am so grateful that He had showed me that before the disease got worse and incurable. Alhamdulillah. Yeah, He did showed me a lot through the people around me and I could never thank HIM enough for that.      There was a lot to be thankful for though sometimes I prove to be not strong enough to be thankful for everything as my guard was pulled down to the centre of the earth by the worldly temptations, leaving me defenseless. One of the things that I am most thankful for is the people around me. To be specific, my dear classmates. They reminded

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Assalamualaikum.      So today I have just started my Final Exam and we got back our Test 2 Phonology Paper. Wait, what?      Anyway, today, is the birthday of a good friend of mine. Yes, thank you for pointing that out. I forgot. Again. Seriously I have no idea why do I keep forgetting dates. But hey, she was cool with it though I felt dead guilty. Maybe that should go into a new year resolution list, birthday list. The part that I'm scared of is that if forgetting what seems to be important to the people I love signals that I am not appreciating the people around me that much as I should. May Allah forgive me. Anyhow got Phonetics on 12. Life's good. I would appreciate a prayer for me thank you yes this paper is kinda a killer. For me. K.  May Allah ease.

You

When the air almost choked me to death, I think of you and everything is right again.

2013

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Assalamualaikum :) 18 Safar 1434 Hijrah - 1 January 2013.      Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah for another chance of another year. The start of the day marks another year. Truth to be told, I do not really see what is the big deal with new year. The celebrations, the wish and all but looking at another side of it, new year can be a good mark to see how far have we walked, because at the start of every year, we get to evaluate our performance in life in relevance to the time setting of our study and life. Another new year coming also reminds me how closer we are to death, just like how birthdays are. But then, sad to admit, I know the fact well but to get me really understand what 'death' actually meant, took more effort than just knowing and realizing.       Anyhow, the topic that people usually talk about as we go shouting "Happy New Year!" is . . . *drumroll* NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! Yeay. New. Year. Resolutions. I suck at this. Back in 2012, I only had few