"Abah kata jangan dipersoal ketentuan Tuhan.
Hikmahnya ada, mungkin makan masa untuk terima tapi jangan dihabiskan masa melontar persoalan."
In an unfortunate event happened to my sister, my Abah told her this to put her at ease and as she retold the story to me, it came to me that one of my 2012 mistakes was that I spent so much time questioning that I waste the time that I could use to improve. I ask about a lot of things. The hows and the whys especially. Some are answered, most are disappointingly go unanswered and it does upsets me personally. The thing about abstract questions is that it requires abstract answers which sometimes could only come from experience and time. Without we realizing it, not only it consumes our time but it consumes our spiritual energy, hence, the emotional rides. On the bright side, it could be one of the means to uplift your spirit. It makes you think and reflect yourself. Exploit all of the emotions, tell it all to HIM, and see the wonder it does.
The experience of going through one unfortunate event may take some time for us to understand the hikmah. Sometimes days, sometimes weeks and sometimes years. Maybe we could never understand it but unconsciously it changes our lives in a good way. Some things should not be questioned why but we should be clear of the impetus.
Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows while you know not.
I know one thing for sure, this is a test of patience and in this test, nothing goes in vain biiznillah.