Nia Ilemor

     I've been a kid for nineteen years. Despite of the age, despite of the number nineteen, I've been a kid. Always have.  But no  longer I will be.       I'll make you proud. I will. :)

Assalamualaikum. Here I am again, talking to myself, sitting at a red light. Both hands on the wheel How am I supposed to feel? So much running through my mind The Getaway_Hilary Duff       These few days I've been kinda busy. Last weekend we had kenduri kesyukuran home and yeah, lotsa things to do. And at the same time I've been kinda busy settling things that grown ups do. Man, no one told me that there's just too much things to deal with as you grow up. Haha. As if. Anyway, yesterday me bestie and me went to the town. Done with some things and we dropped by a textile shop. What a coincidence, we met a senior of two years there. She's apparently working part time. It's sem holiday. So we were talking the normal things that students talk about when they met up, where are you studying now and everything related. Well, it turned out to be that she was also a TESL student, now majoring English for Professional (don't remember the long name :P) in UiTM Shah Al...

Assalamualaikum! :)      It is one of the days where petty things start to violate your brain. You started worrying about unnecessary things. You started feeling insecure despite having those people who can protect you. You started feeling miserable despite all of those happy news. How irony could life get? This irony. You end up hating the one you love and you end up loving the one you hate. Ah, seems like we're a little bit off-track here. Pardon me. Ahem.      Anyway, the result is out. The course is it. The place that is it. Alhamdulillah. Looking at another side, it is the typical side of me, afraid of venturing into the future, afraid what it has to offer me for those offers could easily be bad, real bad. For that, I've been feeling kinda nervous+afraid rather than excited which sounds so wrong because at this point, I should be happy. Yeah, I know. But it's just that, the thought of being far from my family gets me kinda, uh, I don't know. Hope...

Duhai hati, Kenapa gelisah tak tentu arah? Harus jadi tabah. Harus. :/ Semuanya akan baik-baik sahaja. Ya. *take a very deeeeeeeeeeeeep breath and smile :) Degree years, here I come! 

Assalamualaikum :( But it hurts so bad I can't take it any longer -Westlife-      Pain. Indeed it was and still is very painful. I wonder the pain of me keeping you could be compared to the pain of Juliet losing Romeo. Irony? Ah, I bet it is more than that. Define how much pain it is to compliment the word painful. Define the pain because for me it is unbearable. As much as it hurts to keep you, I bet it hurts more to let you go. I've tried and now I guess it is time. It's not that I did not try to heal the wound, I did but it hurts so bad I can't take it any longer. Painkillers and antibiotics are nothing but like dusts complimenting the sand.       With you around me, it feels right. But it is painful. With you around me, I am able to smile, but it is painful. For years we've been together, now for good sake, I have to let you go. I am sorry. Never did I wish for this, but it seems that the situation is compressing the atmosphere. This is the...

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Tangan pegang pipi. Rasa sakit gigi.  Oh my.  Can't sleep =.=" Saya takde gigi lagi tapi saya tetap comelll :D