Forbidden to remember,
Terrified to forget,
It was a hard line to walk.
Isabella Swan_New Moon
They say time heals wounds. They lie. I think they lie. No, I believe it's a lie. Time does not heal any wounds. It is the effort that you have made during the time that will determine whether your wounds will be healed or not. And that is why life is a constant battle. Time never heals any wounds. That is why, if someone hurt you, and you done nothing to take the pain away, you avoid to see them and in years later, when you meet them back, the old scar will just bleed again. That is why, when you had a bad past, but you done nothing to overcome your fear towards the past except running away, when you meet or come across something that reminds you of that 'past', the old scar will just bleed again. It has always been like that. Unless, during the time, you have found your right prescription to the wound, you treat the wound and heal it, then we could say that time does heals wounds, but with the right medication.
The battle to fight the past, to find the right medication for the wounds, is never easy. Whatever type of wounds you had/have, I believe that everyone is either fighting the battle to find the right medication to the wound or they just close their eyes, and let the time hide all those things in the medium of the past. It never make you feel any good or better, the business of facing all those pain. That is why people prefer to keep in the closet. But I say face them in present, find the right medication and let them out of your system. It would be time consuming and painful, but at least, you would feel better and not burdened. At least you wouldn't have to carry it for the rest of your life with agony. Sometimes, we have to let go of things that we want, but we knew is wrong to have. We have to let go of things that we would like to have but by having it would only hurt us. Let it go. Let it go. Just let it go. Deep inside your heart you want it, but you logic says you don't. Well, do listen to your logic this time. You know it is right.
Either you're fighting the battle of overcoming your trauma with something, or forgetting you bitter love stories, or dealing with your past failures or any kind of battle, don't run. Stand still, face it, deal with it and walk away with pride. Move on with pride. Do what it takes to make you happy. Don't let it be a 'it doesn't matter' thing, because you know yourself that deep down in your heart it does matter and it hurts aite? They've moved on, so should you. As times pass by, later in the future you know you would be thanking yourself in past for dealing with it earlier than having your present self to bear all the pain throughout the years. Now we can say that time does heals BUT with the right prescription of medication :)
It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time,
Rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.
Isabella Swan_New Moon